Never Been on the Outside

• I really FREAKIN' hate this feeling
• Why do I need to SCREW UP in my last year?
• It SUCKS to feel that you are insignificant and uncapable
• It's hard to prove yourself when nobody wants to listen
  

YOU WANTED TO CRY BUT YOU COULDN'T
YOU WANTED TO SPEAK BUT YOU SHOULDN'T

Do I live or just exist? or maybe a dead at all. Don't call me EMO or anything cause I'm not any of your prejudgments! How dare you speak like you know anything about me. You don't know anything. You have never known anything.




** Those are the faces of hypocrites.ungenuine.caring but fake. You don't know whom to believe **

YES

I'm a hypocrite as well. "It's okay", "No problem", "It doesn't bother me at all", "You don't need to apologize". But damn! I'm not okay! It is HARD... and PAINFUL... to accept that nobody notices you. Nobody cares for you! I do not need to please everybody, okay. But you never had any right to degrade me. I was trying to be who I am even though sometimes, just not to hurt anybody, I lie to everyone and to myself. Could you not see my effort? I was trying to be the person you wanted to be but it was nonsense. A total bullshit.

I don't want your pity. All I need is your consideration. Your consideration that I can't be that person you expect me to be.

You know what? You always make me feel that I can't do anything. A burden. A dead load. A taint in the scene. A stain. Take a look at yourself cause I'm going to say that you're worse. Far worse than me. DAMN YOU! You don't know how much I loathed you! You may not be able to read this and when you read this, I know, you won't even react. But I'm satisfied that I can tell everyone that I abhor you. I hate you so much. I wanted to shout at your face right now how much I freakin' hate you!

BUT

It's much better to keep silent and only write this down. At least, nobody will know that you're suffering because it's much painful when they know it and don't care at all.

I hate myself when I am this "emo". So sorry for the blabber and all. But I'm too immature to handle this kind of stuff...

Empty

I hate feeling empty...

the feeling that I'm nonexistent

the feeling that I'm unimportant

the feeling that I'm a burden

the feeling that I'm a living dead..

this sucks.

I suck.

Miss Understood

It's just so hard...


I always ask myself why am i like this... I have been trying to change this for a long time. I don't know why I have a lot of mood swings but it really pisses me off and it sucks.

There will be times that I'll be happy and laughing out loud like I have been told the funniest joke in the world like there's no tomorrow.

There will be times that I'll be so down like a hopeless individual that can never be cured.

There will be times that I feel that I'm being so left alone. I don't talk to anyone and I don't care if anyone is pissed off of me... Just be pissed. Who the hell are you.

There will be times that I will feel passionate for any random people and I will give everything just to please them...

It's just so abnormal and I don't want to be like this. I like the fact that there are times that it is the better me but most of the time, I'm the antagonist in my story.

My relationship with other people actually change. I don't talk much at home, sometimes, I don't talk at all. I'm not really close to anyone of them and when they start a conversation and I speak - expect a fight. It's much better to keep quiet actually.

My approach to my friends change as well. I ask them if I was really moody and I know what the answer will be. I really try to change but I can't understand why I feel so irritated when somebody asks me and ruin my scene. Oh God. This actually sucks. Right now, I don't actually know what to feel.

And one of the most painful part about this damn attitude is my affection to someone. Today I love him but for the next days, I won't love him anymore. And that's a total bummer. I'm afraid to love someone anymore for it will only lead to heartache, heartache and heartache. Period.

I don't want to love somebody cause it will be the same old story. We'll only hurt each other. I really don't want to love anymore then wake up one day and the feeling is gone.

Why am I like this? I still don't know the answer.. =(

Gawd. Erase the emoness. I will change. I will. I swear

My Schedule today for the next six days

I don't know if I should be happy or not... I'll let you decide

Wednesday (Nov.25, 2009) - Film viewing all throughout in the afternoon (I love this actually).. harvest

Thursday (Nov.26, 2009) - Red Letter Day (thud thug. thug thug) and half-day (gala time!).harvest

Friday (Nov.27, 2009) - The usual non-class day (most of the time favorable and sometimes not) and solicitation (I agree with this one). Tentatively, viewing of "Paranormal Activity" (I can't hide my excitement!)

Saturday (Nov.28, 2009) - errm.. full time harvest day (quite interesting. I'll be able to catch up with those who degrade my level before).. bwahahaha

Sunday (Nov.29, 2009) - His day. I hope I can go to church (looking forward too) harvest day again

Monday (Nov.30, 2009) - Bonifacio Day.. meaning.... stuck up at home. (booring......) harvest time

Tuesday (Dec. 1, 2009) - waah... I can feel intense Christmas air!!! doing of assignments and projects (brrrrrr...) harvest day... cleaning day. In short, cramming time!

- I really feel less energetic these past few days. I don't know why... -

La Vita è Bella

We had a film showing today and I was really enthusiastic to share about the movie that moved our hearts out and triggered the tears to fall down (including the males)

The movie was entitled "Life is Beautiful" or "La Vita è Bella" in Italian.

"Beautiful" in the movie is ironically shown for instead of a peaceful and joyful life lived by the main character (played by Robert Benigni), it turned out to be the opposite. It is beautiful in a sense that life is exemplified as an interchanging condition wherein a certain person won't live his life merrily all throughout or miserably in his lifetime. The way the person will live his life beautifully, depends on his own hands.

The main character, Guido Orefice, is one heck of a hero. One of my favorite part in the movie is when he was still courting Dora (Nicoletta Braschi) with his notable greeting of "Buon giorno Principessa!"(Good day, Princess!) that serves as a enchanting phrase to his leading lady (as well as to us, viewers). I was impressed for he is always able to find a way to change the track of events with his slapstick humor, audacious improvisation, and outrageous sight gags. Imagine him as a low class man in that time courting an engaged elite woman and more astonishing when he made her his wife.

The big turn of events in their life as a family is when Guido and their son with their uncle was deported to a concentration camp. I honor Dora for ignoring her pride as an Italian by riding the train to the camp disregarding the sufferings she have to endure for her family. I also honor Guido for patiently fulfilling the innocence of his child and showing his never ending fraternal love. He always tell to his child that the camp is just a game to set aside his son's fears.

Guido has done the best of everything he had to fulfill his duty as father even sacrificing his own life. I could not imagine any other person who can do such a deed. I asked myself, "What would I do if I were in his place?" I'll be the total opposite as a matter of fact. I could not tell any silly jokes to my own son when I know a great peril is fast approaching. I could not race my hand to volunteer in translating the rules, facing the ruthless officers just to relieve the fear of my son. I might have just got a rifle from the soldiers and killed myself in that situation. He was really praiseworthy and incomparable. I really cried my heart out when he was killed. In a split second, he's dead. I could not even believe it.

The character of Guido should serve as an inspiration not just only to fathers but to all. To be able to suppress the misery to yourself and be able to turn it as a ray of hope for the others who need it is a very notable deed. It is selflessness. Undoubtedly praiseworthy.

In the first part of the movie, life is compared to a fable, full of sorrow but still a joyride of happiness and beauty. Life is a fable of love and sacrifice where each one of us is the main character of our own story. Life will never be fair nor unfair. It is inevitable but being able to transform it into a beautiful landscape is the primary challenge of our reality.

Nevertheless, the movie was not about the reality of either courtship or death camps. It is a metaphor about the lengths to which a man will go for those he loves, a contemplation on the beauty of life even when tragically restricted or cut short.

- To disclose, I would like to share my favorite riddle in the movie. Pardon me if I haven't quoted it correctly but the thought is more or less the same.

"When you know and call my name, I'm not there anymore. Who am I?" and the answer?

SILENCE

We should all consider ourselves as the son of Guido who is proudly teaching us the lesson of love, sacrifice and selflessness. This movie deserves more than a round of applause or standing ovation. It is rightful of deep appreciation and a treasured place in one's heart where its worth will never wither nor die.

The birthday... The humiliation... and the laughtrip...xp

BIRTHDAY!!!

The highlights: The most wonderful Dad's birthday in the whole wide universe! That's my dad!

---you've read it right... today... Nov. 18, '09 is my Papa's birthday...I really don't know what to give him because I still fear that he might not appreciate it.. (because he is meticulous in some things)

.. so I ended up giving him a cake and a "secret something" instead that he really appreciated.. (yes!) and my sister told me that she bought a tumbler from SB.

after I got home from school, we ate at our house and took some pictures. See below for facts about the cake I gave. :D

HUMILIATION..oh no!

Note: Please!!!! Respect me after this...

The highlights: The unwanted uncovering and the accidental trip off.

(minor first)
Continuation of the "cake thing"...

So I was at the computer laboratory doing my project when suddenly someone hugged me at the back and wail there. At first, I did not recognize her then I realized, it was Cha. I wondered why she was crying. I thought that maybe her files were deleted or she forgot something that she need to tell me immediately. But then, she confessed that the cake was "devastated" (haha.. sorry for the word Cha. Okay, let's use a lighter term.) "slightly devastated" (HAHA)... It took me a second to realize what cake it was! But then, it also took me a second to react. Of course I am very.............................


sorry for her (haha. I never get angry as you may expect otherwise) because I know she will surely blame herself even if she didn't mean to do it. And as well sad since I wanted the gift to be special. But of course, I will choose my friend over the cake. It's just a cake and I know, Cha will surely pay for it some other time.. Haha.. kidding! Then I was really sad when she cried but I know she'll get over it. What happened next I presented the "devastated" rather, "slightly devastated" cake to my father with the reason that I accidentally put my things over it. (yey!) he was not angry instead, he thanked me. And that's the most wonderful word I have ever heard. Cha, apir!

(the major one)

Wednesday morning and I was studying in Filipino when I saw Chiqui holding a chinese garter (made of rubber bands.. haha). I got excited of course since I missed playing it. Then I asked Chiqui to play. But since it was played by atleast three, we didn't continue it. I was just playing around when I finally jumped over the bands when suddenly, (imagine this in slow mo even though I can't imagine it and I don't want to imagine it!!!)

my standing leg was off-balanced, I slided to the left, I was wearing a skirt, the skirt was pulled upwards, I landed to the ground with that form.

Oh my my my my! 're you still with me? Be my guess in imagining!

and the hardest part is that.. is that... IS THAT... I was in front of half of the class... and the hardest of the hardest part is that, I am facing the male students of the class... bury me now!!! BURY ME!!!

I really didn't know what to say and what face must I show to my classmates. That is one heck of an embarrassment. Never to be forgotten. I would even want to trade faces with Grendel just to be able to face them. So my advice, never play chinese garter. never!

LAUGH TRIP!

At the end of the day, it will always turn out well.

The last part is our presentation in our Music/Health class... haha...

It was our turn to perform and I really love it cause we all enjoyed it. Especially the errors.. haha... I love watching the other groups especially Boa's. "Nodding my head like yeah... Moving my hips like yeah(plus swaying of hips)" That fun overpowered the unforgettable humiliation in my life..

And again... HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DAD!!! YOU'RE THE BEST. WE LOVE YOU!

In the Midst of Calamity

tut tut tut.. my brain is quite functioning now.. so i can blog. again.

WHAT: Tropical Storm Ondoy on the rush
WHEN: Last week of September 2009
WHERE: Pacific Ring of Fire

so here's the thing...

typhoons are common occurrences in the Philippines, but this typhoon, Ondoy, is one heck of a menace.

As I woke up on September 26, 2009 morning, it seems like the rain for a year was gathered all together and poured in just one day. Literally, when it rains, it pours.

Nevertheless, this seems like a normal day to me since it is typical in our country. But the thing struck me when i watched the news. "What has just happened?!", I exclaimed.

The Metro Manila and nearby town is devastated with flood. Would you imagine that the flood will rise at almost neck level? Civillians were trap in their own homes and are waiting for rescuers on the roof; vehicles and house debris are floating with the current; many are injured and some unfortunately died and all I can do for that moment is watch for my fellowmen while they are in distress.

But it seems like I am not the only one who is feeling remorseful for them. It is relieving to see in every channel that they cancelled their shows to televise and ask for donations and volunteers to help the victims. They also faced the peril of the typhoon to report the status of those who need to be rescued.

In the midst of calamity, it is heartwarming that every Filipino is taking part in his role for his fellow citizens. That makes me proud. But, it's irritating to hear news about those circulating pranks like opening of the Marikina dam, breaking off of zoo animals and other things that are absurd and ridiculous. There are scared people in the affected areas and those kind of pranks are not laughable for the time being. To those who started those pranks, there is a time for such things and I daresay, it is not now. DO THEY IMAGINE those people who are covered with panic and trauma with the incident? DO THEY CARE for those people who haven't been eating for the past few days for they don't know where to search for food? DO THEY CONSIDER those people who cannot sleep day and night for they are searching for their lost companions? DO THEY KNOW that there are those volunteers who risked their lives to search for strangers to whom they are concerned? DO THEY THINK of those people who are clinging to the edge of life and is taking their last breathe at this moment? So please...be aware of the situation. please.

One part that made me sad as well was on September 28, 2009. It was the "FaMEALy Day". But my family haven't observed it though I really wanted to eat together with the whole family. I am thinking of those family victims in the flood. We are lucky to be able to celebrate it but didn't took the chance while some of the family in the evacuation centers haven't got the chance to do it with the lost of their loved ones. Try to think about it.

For the mean time, as a Filipino youth who is just watching the news in the TV before, I'm one of the numerous citizens who wanted to extend their help to the victims. So tomorrow, we will donate and gather the necessary things that will alleviate the sufferings of the victims. We want to help in the simplest ways we can do.

Every survivor have his own stories to tell and from this incident, we should learn our lesson before it gets worse. It's hard to fight back when it is nature that is struggling. How many lives should be taken and how many homes should be broken before we act to prevent these calamities. Should we wait until the whole archipelago is a goner? We have our responsibility to our people and country so let's act on our own discipline and start to replenish the nature that we are still destroying.

ayan. brain's system shut down.

if only........

well.. i just wanna share about a movie i've watched...

and the message really sank deep in my heart....

it's about lovers.. then the guy dreamt about the death of his girlfriend... he really regreted it cause he haven't shown how much he loved her until the event happened..his girlfriend really really love him and always make the effort for their relationship...

until he woke up and found out it was a dream.. His girlfriend is alive!!!

then on that day..all the things in his dream is happening and he did everything to prevent it.. but no matter how hard he tried.. things fell in their places... =((

all he just did is to make the day perfect to his girl and tell her and make her feel how much he loves her and will always love her...

the girl, wondering about the sudden change with her boyfriend, just enjoyed the day and was really touched with the efforts of her guy... they both really really love each other... until..

IT IS TIME

the accident happened.. and in the end... the guy died.. =((

i really didn't expect it to happen.. but it did. and the girl also regreted it and in the end... still continued to love the guy and composed songs for him..

you really don't know what to expect in life..

just love people you love
live your life the way you want it
and never waste time until it's too late...

"Death can never cease love.. endless love."

"He loved her like there's no tomorrow."

it really made me cry...
and very very sad..T_T

i recommend you to watch the film.. you'll really love it...
never stop showing how much you love them.. =))
p.s.

cleveland won over orlando.. buzzer beater guys!!! yahoo! for one second.. hail James!

sagala 09.... xp

okay.. so.. this is the day.. for............. FOOD!!!..that's OUR purpose (kuya ekoy and kuya enod) why we joined the santacruzan.. ahhaha.... JUST KIDDING... actually..

IT'S ONE OF THE PURPOSES.. xp

so.. it happened last May 16, 2008.. saturday.. that's why I haven't gone to Cha's barrio fiesta.. sorry...

and... by the way... Santacruzan is an annual tradition celebrated in the month of May to honor Virgin Mary... Ave Maria! huwow! wherein there are hermanas, queens, little angels and other sagalas... hahha...

back to the story... I woke up maybe 10 in the morning being too tired from my review and then watched Boys Over Flowers.. nice nice nice!!! hahaha.. then i took a bath and went to the make-up artist... (Viva France!) haahah...

then..the procession is almost starting when I wore my gown.. let me give u a glimpse.. =)

it's the back view.. xD

so.. this is it.. we went to the church with my sis, cousin, titas and my partner, kuya ekoy.. hihi

by the way.. I'm Reyna Samarita.. it's the Samaritan Queen..

it's 4:00 in the afternoon and it's really hot!!!! well.. it's sacrifice... too good we have umbrella... and i'm wearing my nearly-dying-but-still-surviving shoes... whew! ahha.. good luck for me..

and even though all the oil is spreading all over my face.. smile girl.. smile.. haaahaha.. i'm too tired after walking all around our barangay and i have wounds on my feet...

at last! it's finish... we went to the court because it's the venue for EATING!!! kuya ekoy is to00oo excited... whhhaha.. and then.. when it's our time to go to the venue.. they closed the gate... HEY! why did you closed it??!!!


the reason: there will be no one to attend the mass,..

oh well okay.. so we are just in time.. haaaaaaay.. I'm too tired.. but i really also want to go to the mass...

then.. it ended and this is really is it!!! CIAO CIAO!

haha.. and i love the food.. and i love my wounded feet.. and i love my attire.. and i love my burned skin.. and i love the free rose.. and i love my Reyna Samarita sash.. and i really really love the experience.. xp .. =))

at the house
pix with my sis!

nice nice nicE!

being the Reyna Samarita

ready to go!


wearing off...

btw.. this is my nearly-dying-but-still-surviving-and-now-is-murdered shoes..

see?? it's broken!


after the mass with my grandson



these are our free roses




at the procession! too hot!
going home.. i'm so stressed.. +00


i love this!



ahm.. no comment


at the reception


hi shoes... gonna burry you now..

and it's finished.... xp

gambling do no good...=)

well..here's a good thing to do... to earn money while on vacation..

..GAMBLING..

woah...that's not right.. haha..it's bad..but..it's healthy at times.. (white and black fighting in my mind)

so... since the fiest in our town is coming... a perya has been established.. it's a mini carnival and the target?? the COLOR GAME.. waahhaha..

at first.. i am just betting 5pesos ahhhaha.. then winning.. then it became 10 until 20 then 50 and i'm earning a lot of money,,, but as they say.. nobody wins at this game.. so i ended up losing everything.. hahah..so.. how can we go home????if we don't have money.. this is bad!

i went to the perya with my sis, my tito and my sis's friend.. i've seen some friends and think of borrowing money from them.. actually.. my sis thought of it.. but hell no! alyssa.. that's enough,,

so.. kuya ekoy (my tito) and me roam around and betting on colors.. just for fun.. but there's no money.. and too bad it always go right!

then.. i tucked my hands on my pockets.. wait..WAIT! what is this. 5pesos??? 5 pesos!!! (OH MY.. as if it's a big deal).. but.. now.. it's a big deal.. hihih..so we bet on it.. and guess what??!!! guess what???!! we lose.. ahha.. nice..

then.. my sis's friend, kuya christian.. got a 5peso coin also..but,.. it's not stolen, take note! and we bet it.. it gained almost 60 for some time.. but we lose all of it again.. woah..this is bad..

we roam around again and look on some clothes sold on the tiangge.. and we checked on the rides. and we wanna ride on them!!! but we don't have money.. (oh alyssa.. go home!).. and actually.. i'm STARVING!!! i want to go home.. but they want to stay for some time..

we sat on the bingo stand.. and played it.. but for fun only..haha.. i rily had fun with my kuya ekoy.. he's like a real brother to me...

and when we watched at the color game again.. when i heard a familiar music played.. is it really check yes juliet??? it's kinda blur... but i think it's not..

then the lyrics came in..

..save me, I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think..

I'm almost not breathing.. although it's an old song.. it's still the best for me and the most special and it won't fade.. *(korny as u think.. but it's so special for me) and my heart actually skipped a beat!

..He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said..

This is my fav part!!!

...Marry me Jul-........

woah! why do they have to cut that?? and why on that part???

oh my my.. well.. this is actually not my day.. so i insist on going home.. and i stare on the sky.. it's half moon today.. it'll make me happier if it's full moon.. i can't wait.. i hope..on my birthday.. it's full moon..

and I'm home..and before i end this...

theodore humanson gimfil.. (haha.. full name???? peace peace!!!)

man! come on..it's on the song.. it's on it!!!

(why do i have to argue about that??) haha.. laughs...

sorry for making it a big deal.. well.. it's just that.. it's my fav song right now.. check yes JULIET.. hihi.. well.. time to sleep.. nyt to everybody..

cha, nadz!!! distance doesn't matter..=)

...forever will be.. YOU and ME...

i just wish..i really wish.. =(=

p.s.

there have been a misinterpretation at the check yes juliet part.. never mind it.. hihi..=)

this is the true start of the disco camp.. so i went inside when Daiyen called me.. this is surely the place!

i'm surprised when i see them in their swim wear.. what???i asked Marlon why and said that they'll gonna go swimming.. (nice! the venue has swimming poolS too).. but.. ahm.. nobody told me that we're gonna swim! i don't have shorts.. hurm..

then i saw Diana because Flora is changing clothes too.. they asked me to swim too.. hurm.. mybe i can use my tokong.. so.. i changed too ..i accompanied Malen to the shower room.. and it's badly raining! our bags are all wet!

then...we're changed.. as we arrived.. they're already going back to the cottage.. they said that we are not allowed to swim now because there's lightning.. it may hit the water..

what?? nice Malen!we had the chance to swim.. argh! i also don't have the pix in the pool.. too bad!!then we went inside the rest house after taking a shower and changing our clothes.. comfortable!

then i chatted with my friends until the Talk 3 came.. too bad i don't have the chance to listen to the first two talks.. it's about self and family i think.. well.. the talk 3 is about talents.. go kua norman!the message is nice and i know we all have talents.. show it up guys and gals.. =)

ahm..then kuya norman announced that the Highschool highs will not be held within schools.. it will be held individually in each own school..so.. he asked us to have a mini HS high for the e-night..so we'll have to prepare the program..

then we had a meeting.. at first we are not serious.. we're all laughing at every thought.. but we came to an idea to illustrate the 7 indentities through interpretative dance.. have a Praise and Fashion, ahm.. talks.. sharings.. TOS, chants.. and other secrets.. wahahha..

then because we are all gonna eat each other.. we decided to have our dinner.. we ate rice and maybe it's pork.. hihih. and water..

then.. i chat with my friends again and take pictures and we again had the meeting for the e-night.."entertainment night".. =)

we also jam and kuya norman played some songs too... what others??hurm...well. it's kinda fun cause i'm chatting with my special best friend... Nadine!! ahha.. laughs laughs laughs and many more laughs..and i also have fun with my other close friends..

then the talk 4 began.. title?? "When I Fall In L♥ve" yihee!☺

ahm... i forgot the name of the tito.. something like "E" .. hard to pronounce.. but i like the talk and he also share some of his experiences about love.. well.. we shouldn't forget the three.. FAITH, HOPE and LOVE.. but the greatest of the three is LOVE...God is Love!!!

TRUE L♥VE WAITS!

ahm.. and before that.. Kuya Norman and Ate Abby sang two beautiful songs.. so heartwarming.. i remembered someone actually.. hurm.. who? ask me..=)

then.. after the talk.. Kuya Norman took the floor and shared love experiences.. oh my my..why do we have to also share ours???i really wann avoid the bottle .. but there's no way to escape.. thank God Nadine u asked bout the current.. past is past.. hihi..

ahm.. i shared actually not bout my love life.. it's just bout someone.. who i maybe like now.. just an inspiration..u wanna know who?? ask me again. he's the one i remembered when Ate Abby sang the song.. hihi.. Nadz, distance doesn't matter right???

ahha.. well.. the sharings is not all bout happy experiences.. most of them are bout break-ups.. sad sad..=(((.. hope.. it won't happen to me..well.. we just have to pray for it.

ahm.. and before i forgot! we had exciting games and jokes too.. but the game that i really love is with ate chi! ahha.. diego sipilyo? magkano? ows? talga? magkano kayo? ahha.. really really fun!!there's also ate Diana and ateWheng.. too bad.. they can't stay through the night.. whew! I miss Desha!! gurl advancehappy birthday! I also miss Iecar! and my sf.. AlyssA!!!(we have same name)

ahm.. then it's time to sleep but before that.. we had our midnight snack.. bread (pan de sal) and hotdog.. yum yum.. and of course.. nice's doughnuts and chocolates.. hiihih.. and some crackers...

then.. i'm all worn out.. so we gotta sleep.. but first .. arrange the beddings.. and don't forget to take the pictures.. =))))

then.. it's the 2nd day.. the call time is 6 so u have to take a bath before 6.. but we woke up.. 6:15.. hhaha.. i really don't have the plan to take a bath in here.. i'll do it when i'm home later..hihi.. so i stand.. o0ow!ow!!! my back is aching.. all our backs are aching.. well.. we slept at the floor with our beddings.. natural.. but it's okay.. but i'm still droggy.. then we decided to take a toothbrush.. and after that.. we gonna have to prepare again for the e-day.. well.. it's transferred because we don't have time the last night..while we are preparing and waiting for the breakfast.. Kuya Norman, Kuya Nathan and Ate Chi is jamming.. they're singing songs.. and we sing with them.. really really fun.. and then..the e-day came!! haha.. at first.. we are really shy cause the campus based is watching.. we started it with an opening prayer of Marlon...then.. our emcee.. Daiyen.. is not really shy..(peace!!).. ahah.. it all turned out well

especially.. when..Liker gave the opening remarks..a.ka. tito Molong.. we are all laughing because he is impersonating Tito Molong.. our CFC coordinator in cavite.. hhihiih..

then.. after that.. we learned the ILC Step-up chant.. nice nice nice!! even though i haven't attended it... i still have a glimpse on it.. YFC come on step up! Move forward! Move to the groove.. Christ is the prize.. YFC, forward in Christ!!!and the steps are really nice.. then Daiyen a.k.a. Pasty the 2nd gave some jokes and then it's time for the praise and fashion.. =)..so co00o0l!!!

Diana is effin' hot.. she's so00ooo beautiful.. hahaha.. and the other models are also dazzling... (compliment guyz! haha..) they ramped with their YFC shirts.. nice right??

then..before the Talk 5, we had a game.. the sensitivity game by Kuya Nathan.. it's also co00ol.. i'll share it some time.. then.. Talk 5 is about..Freedom to choose.. with Kuya Mon.. a full-time worker.. the talk is really inspiring also because he shared experiences and stories..
we are not made for Earth.. we are destined as citizens in heaven.. =))))))

then.. after the talk is the most blessing part for all of us.. when i stood up..i felt goosebumps all over my body,, well.. i don't wanna call it goosebumps.. i felt like God is comforting me.. God is with me.. really really blessed!! and i prayed with all my heart and mind and thank God for this wonderful blessings.. i'm really crying as I stand up and then we sang Heaven.. heaven is really here in my heart,, God is in me.. God is in my heart.. i love God and God loves us...

then. after that.. we sang God is Enough.. i can't stop praising him and raising and shouting for Him!!! this is so0oo0o0 fantastic.. but then.. we only had two songs.. but it's all right.. i had a glimpse of heaven.. and it's a privilege..a vital privilege..whew!!!!

then,.. after it.. we had our sharings of reactions and feelings..
ahm.. all i can say is i'm sooo0o0oo blessed!!!
but then.. Princess is kinda sad cause she thinks she's out of place..sorry sis!!!! we didn't mean to.. we love you sis.. and Kuya Norman..u made me cry.. hmp.. stop crying.. we'll gonna miss you!! really really..!!! thanks for everything.. you're more than a friend to us.. you're like our big bro.. waah..='((((

and i also wanna thank everybody.. especially the service teams and campus based for sharing the event with us.. sorry for the "kakulitan".. ahah.. we all had fun.. and till next time..love you all!!!


haay.. it's all so fast..we gotta go home..but it's alright.. we discovered so much that we didn't expected.. love you guyz!! i know you have your own stories to tell.. most of all.. I LOVE YOU GOD!!! sorry for everything..=')

DISCOVERY CAMP: such an opportunity to discover yourself, your family, your friends and especially God so much more... =))


me and eunice playing stuff at the restroom..=))



ooh!!!! i'll leave it for you to guess.. =p


i love this pic!! we are like dolls! cool!


disco camp! waaaaaah


ahm.. a doll, breaking out?!



wow... that's all i can say.. the venue!



three goddesses..wahhaha.. ahm...

eunice=hera.. wahaha..jowk
nadine=athena... pwede n ba?
alyssa=alyssa.. =P

kidding!



pix before going home!


before sleeping.. =)

"hey!you have something on your nose...", Ced said.. (homonyms)
"buhok ba??? (jowk lang!)" nadz said...
"kaw rin meron!" she added

discovery camp is a must-be-remembered..=)

waaaaaaah.. today is it.. we will have our discovery camp a.k.a. disco camp..=).. this is my 1st tym!!!! and i'm really really excited.. but but but..

=(((((


today is also my couz's graduation day..too bad.. i had to attend it..but i also wanna attend it too..but i don't wanna miss the disco camp! so..i decided to 1st attend to the grad then go to the camp afterwards..

the grad day is fab...=) congratz dear couz!!! 2nd honors! way to go!

then i went home and get my things.. i don't have the time to eat the food cause it is still not cooked.. clok clok clok.. (i'm definitely hungry.. but it's okay.. DISCO CAMP!!!)

but.. there's a major problem actually..they're on the venue already so i gotta go ALONE.. (well.. as usual.......for me.. )

ahm.. but i don't know how to go there.. so i texted my classmate.. she said the directions and GO ALYSSA!!! you'll find it.. hiihiihii..i feel like dora the explorer.. bwahahaha

then i said the place to the driver.. he said that he'll take me there..he said it with too much confidence.. i trust in u manong.. (yipee!!! i think.. i'm almost there!!!)

then he stopped and said that i don't have to pay for the ride... (really manong??? this must be my lucky day..) then i thanked him and went outside the jeepney..

oh my my..!!!! where in the world am i???

imagine this... you're in front of a some kinda abandoned house like only ghosts are residing with a rusty gate and a hanging "Close" in it... then there's a big tree on it's side like a monster is living in it..

i definitely not going inside here.. are we camping in here??nope nope nope!!!

so i walked on the next house.. the next one is much better but it looks like abandoned too and is kinda wide.. there's tanks inside like for gasoline and the pathway is filthy... this is worse!

then i continued walking and found a close hardware shop..not definitely this.. now.. i think.. i really need help.. i texted my classmate and she said that it's on the TAMIO'S.. it is what i said to the driver.. but where am i now??? hurm!!!

and i'm really lucky cause it started to rain and i have no umbrella.. lucky huh?!.. hello?summer??? where are you??

so i stand there.. dripping in the rain.. for about ten minutes before i decided to wear my jacket... this is much much worse.. i'm getting cold and and all wet... but Lord is in the rescue because somebody came and offered me an umbrella and asked me to stay in their place until the rain stopped.. THANKS!!!

then.. i texted again Kuya Norman and said that it is exactly at the back of the gasoline station in Jetron.. waah.. i dunno that!!! so.. i sat on the chair outside the place of the man and asked him how to go to the said place.. he said that he'll get me a jeepney.. thanks manong!!!.. so he offered me his umbrella and fetch me a jeepney.. i thank him.. really really!!!

then the driver dropped me to the gasoline station.. it's still raining so i clutch my all wet jacket tight.. (what's the use?) at first.. u'll think that it's just merely a gasoline station.. but there's a huge gate at the back of it with the CFC's sign on it!!! c0oo0oooo0l... the place is so0ooo much different from my first destination.. it's like a dream.. haha..it's so huge and fantastic.. then i heard a voice calling me.. hi daiyen!!! waahha.. i knew your voice.. =)

and this is the start.. next blog plz.. =)

i hate being BLOO0O0OOO0DY sick!

i thought i was fine.. i REALLY thought i was fine..

so i went to school after i got a rest and that's a blast actually.. it's nice to be back to school with all ur friends and I'm really excited when they told me if i will be there in the ubernyt!!!!of course i will!

but then.. afternoon came...crap! i felt like i was floating away.. waah.. my temperature is really high and all the hair in my body is standing.. crap... it can't be.. i can't be sick! i can't be sick again! how bout the sleepover??? how about the trip to the river??? this is totally crap. dang!

i actually wanna help to finish our project at school but i can't move and i really can't go home like this... what will my father say??!!but i have no choice and i know why this is happening.. now i know..
stupid gurl.. really really stupid.. why in the hell did you forgot to take your meds??!!!!

oh my... i have no choice but to go home.. and there i was... i'm home.. but actually.. i'm smiling..i'm pretending that i was AAAALL right... (this is getting really hard)..

how can i bless to my grandma??? well.. i hope she won't notice.. but but but.. what???!!!!i thought.. dad is at work?? why is he bloody here?? he'll be angry if he knew I'm sick... discipline gurl! next time.. behave!take ur meds okay?!

so i went to the kitchen smiling.. AAAALL right... i grab my father's hand and bless very quick same with my grandma... co0o0oo0l! they haven't noticed.. i'm a good actress actually.. hahaha...and then my dad went to work.... just in time!

but,, this fever is really into me.. I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE...maybe my grandma will understand.. so i told her... she's a nervy but it's nature.. and i was surprised when she ask our neighbor to 'TAWAS' me... it's done to kinda sense if there's the supernatural being inside me and making all this sickness...(what???!!!)this isn't really happening...supernatural being??????this is totally crap

i ask my grandma if she really believes in it.. and she said absolutely..well..i have no choice..(hand at my forehead) i'm gonna do this bloody thing whether I like it or not..

then they came and here are the equipments:

• two candles (white)
• 1 container with water
• knife (are they gonna tear my stomach apart?)
• paper (i don't know what is it called but it can be purchased in our store here)
• matchbox and matchstick of course

and then she asked my name and started to do her thing.. after that.. she formed so many figures in the container..like a long-haired gurl... monster baby.. black creature.. baah..she's an expert i think.. maybe she'll put it in her exhibit

and told me that she doesn't know where it came from and just asked to sleep with it under my pillow.. (nice one! will i dream about them????)
but it's not that.. she asked if my back is aching.. actually it is.. so she called me to my room because she will massage it.. nice! thanks..

then i lie.. she started.. aaah.. nice... continue.. right.. there.. ahh... aaw..aw!OW!!!stop! oh my.. do u know what does "bone" mean???? i have bones actually! don't break them! ow! crap! i have no bones..i'm paralyzed.. i'm not getting well.. this is dang!

well.. my fever haven't lowered the whole night but after i take my meds... i was feeling alright..

how i wish i can be there in the river now.. and have the sleepover too..

they are all enjoying.. without me.without me.WITHOUT ME!

why did they have to plan all of these when i'm sick??!!!! this is so unfair.. i've been always there when there are plans like these.. and i have never felt all left out all my life.. this is bloody bloody bad!!!

but i know... God made this for a purpose... i just need to rest... T_T..

i don't wanna be sick anymore.. no more.. never!

p.s.

good news...i just received the message..my family is going to a comedy bar.. and this is really so0o0o unfair... i'm not joining them.. for God's sake.. I'm fine!!!!!

i'm crying now actually.. my whole vacation is ruined i think..good start for the end of my tiring school year.. enjoy guyz... me.. i'm gonna lie on my bed and cry... this is just a nightmare...a NIGHTMARE!

i hate being bloody sick!

okay... so.. being sick is like being in the roller coaster for about 24 hours and being 4 days sick is four times greater than that...except i haven't the involuntary personal protein spill (in short, vomit)

i really hate being bloody sick!

first.. i lost my appetite and i can't eat even though i'm really hungry.. i think.. my stomach is eating its own..
second.. i can feel every part of my body aching and i discover muscles that i never knew before... i can't stand from my bed..and i have to eat there and i feel like i'm being cooked in my bed.. i'm too hot!
third.. i have to wake up every hour because i can't sleep and i have to drink that bloody medicine... i hate taking them.. they really taste bitter..

and i have to go to school last monday for our play. then i stayed at the infirmary to rest and was called up when the time of play has come...well.. the play was nice and i really love the costume of the dancers.. but i look like a ghost drifting away when i was delivering my lines.. and i even manage to speak..unbelievable that i'm able to work through the play then i went home after it and let that headache work through me...

aargh.. but now.. thank God... i'm fine and will be able to get back to school tomorrow.. now.. i just wanna eat chocolateS!!! haha.. and after a one day of rest.. i finished now the UNDOMESTIC GODDESS!!! it's bloody co0o0oo0ol!!! i just hope i will not be sick again..

cause i really hate meds!


p.s.. now... i'm bloody pissed off!!!

(waah.. is this me??? i'm not used in saying these words.. waaah.. what's happening to me??)well. this will be the last...


i've been waiting straight 12 hours for the movie "Slumdog Millionaire" to be converted into the iPod format.. and when it's nearly finished.. maybe 3 percent more..i'm really getting excited then i pressed enter not knowing.. i accidentally pressed the
BLOODY CANCEL!!!!!!!

i have been sleeping with that 12 hours..i have been riding on my motor on that 12 hours (if i were going outside the house..), i have been baking and reading in that 12 hours.. i have been playing guitar and writing songs with that 12 hours! but i just stare and surf the comp and wait for that bloody 12 hours then it's all gone..

tough luck gurl.. be careful next time.. =)

i love GUESS

hi hi

i promise this will gonna be my last blog for march!!! waah.. i have so many blogs..

ahm... this happened yesterday.. i don't have time to type it..

ahm.. my report for yesterday:

• I decided to wake up at 7:45 but woke up 5! dang! I need to get some sleep
  
• I finished reading confessions of a shopaholic and my eyes are all wet with tears... they are aching now.. It's hard to read in front of the comp for 3 hours, you bet. I look like I chopped thousand of onions.. but the book is great!
• I went to the burial of Charles' father.. Man, it's not bad to cry... I know you can do it.. we're always here for you
• I went to my dentist and replaced my rubber in my braces with hurmm.. sky blue??? And... she always talks about his son..linking to me.. baah... not kinda interested now.. studies first,,... really sorry
• I grab frost blend hoping I'll see HIM (who's gonna bet if they know HIM?) i'm keeping it to myself.. bwaahah.. but I haven't seen him so i went home. Take note: They don't have straw so I used the spoon.. nice..=)
• I arrived home and turn the computer on but the connection is slow so I got a little annoyed and turned it off... I feel a little sleepy now.. zzzz Yawn!
• But!!!! I found my book that I haven't read.. the HARDY BOYS... the volume bout their psychic friend and it's kinda nice.. After finishing it, I ate PRINGLES...waah.. i love it so0o0oo much!
• Tita Les arrived! She's my cousin's mom from Canada. It's nice that she's here.. Luckily, we received presents from her..Cool... I love having GUESS.. cause in here.. it's pricelss!Thanks tita! Mwaah
• I watch the contest in our barangay. It's funny to see little kids dancing.. I was daydreaming seeing myself and my classmates dance in there too. Waah.. Poof! Bah.. Don't think of it.. And take note: The people in the court will stare at me then whisper at her/his companion.. kinda awkward huh??!!! hate seeing those .. well.. i can't blame them,.. I'm the they-don't-know-i-exist gurl from downtown.. I rarely go outside my house.. waah.. too bad for me
• I'm so sleepy and tired that I didn't finish watching the contest and really conscious with those staring people.. halow??!!! i'm just watching!well. hello world! i exist! contented, people???? so please stop staring!!! well.. My mind is really full now and i feel a little stressed. One thing: I wish my mom was here.. =( but, i know she'll always be here.. =)

and...the other "HE".. God says.. "it's not now"

okay.. I'll wait and and!!! i'm reading the "THE UNDOMESTIC GODDESS"right now.. it removes all my stress away.. Co0oool! I can't stop loving it... i will spend my vacation like these.. waah

gurl... i think... u should stop now...Cause your a li.... tir... zZzzZzZz...ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!

this is totally the doom's day.. well..not exactly.. waah.. i dunno!

exams are finished.. and..after three days of working for those BIG BLACK EYEBAAAAAAAAAAAGS... finally.. it's vacation man!!!!

but before we say goodbye to blackboards, filthy classrooms and irritated-with-our-section-because-of-being-noisy teachers... well.. i haven't escaped bad luck..

i've been burning the midnight oil as i study in physics but!!! in the exam... i forgot the formulas.. waaa.... i hate that thing!!! well.. i don't wanna check those paperS!!!

haaay.... well..we will gonna be FOURTH YEARS..
what do you think i should feel??? or WE should feel.. haay..
but even though vacation is coming.. i dunno why i'm not that happy and excited. haay...

well.. hope i can get my summer sched on the loose...

here it is:
1. sleep for 48 hours
2. watch my newly bought VCD's (either with friends or family or alone)
3. listen to new downloaded music and even the old ones.. (this will never be eliminated)
4. read my new books!!!!
5. forget studying even just for 1 and a half month
6. think of how to invent the results of my entrepreneurial activity
7. get a summer job =)
8. enjoy the summer getaway (hope it's bora, nasugbu, palawan or maybe in the garden with my,,,.. dog?)
9. have a review for the UPCAT.. (waah.. told you! i don' t wanna study)
10. sleepover with my tropa (better if it's in our house in gen. tri.. whew exciting!!!)
11. beach party for my birthday.. (if not.. maybe i'll just drink... without texting.. u know what i mean especially maje.. =). haha.. laughs.. just joking...)
12. i won't drink anymorE!
13. won't eat too much.. except.. if it's sweets especially HALO-HALO!
14. exercise
15. don't overwork your melanin (meaning I shouldn't be cooked.. under the sun)
16. learn how to clean my room.. =) and cook.. (gurl.. grow up!)
17. spent my senti time with my guitar and be the frustated Shakespeare
18. shop.. shop.. shop..!!!
19. keep in touch with tri-eii and and and!
20. never stop praising God!

waah.. i dunno if this all will be achieved but i hope i can enjoy summer..

now..i'm just so tired.. i wanna sleep..

enjoy your summer guys!! hope it won't gonna be s0o0o0ooo hot!!!


i'm gonna MISS tri-eii s-o0o00o0 much!

dunno why i wrote this..=(

But now..
things changed...
is this reality?
where's yesterday?

Where are you now?
Where did you go?
Now that I love you so much more
My heart is screaming, my eyes are searching..

Where's my Romeo???


You know I'm missing you so much
And I hope this one you would catch
Even though, you don't feel the same
I just love you more than I can say

I'm all alone now, I'm trying somehow
To understand what you're up to
But I keep searching cause my half is missing,..

Where's my ROMEO????

daaaaaaaaaaaaang!!!!!

i have actually no idea why i wrote this.. but it's not connected to me.. REALLY..=)

ooh.. i just wasted my money!

waah.. what the! i was rushing for school cause I'm almost late and when i rode the tricycle.. I remembered.."Where's my poster???!!!"

i've been working at it all night but then i fORGOT to bring it to school! too bad the tricycle is so0o00 far from home and the submission of the poster is first subject!!!

WHAT AM I GONNA DO???!

i remembered last wed, our teacher said in a strict voice that it should be submitted early in the morning at her time.. and the deadline is really lo0o0o0ong.. am i gonna die??!! good start for a monday gurl!

well..i arrived school like a psycho.. screaming in the room.. "Who has extra load??"

but then.. they don't have .. me too..
so the last resort??? "GO BACK HOME!!!"

am i really going back home???? waah.. the fare is too high.. but i don't have something to do.. so i went home

i met my classmate along the way and told her to make excuses for me.. headache.. stomachache...on the hospital.. died....ANYTHING! so i rushed on the trike... and when i arrived home.. i grabbed the poster and jumped t the seat again..

i texted my classmate and she said classes are over.. (DEAD!)... i asked with teary eyes..."WHat did you said to Ma'am??? is she angry??? what did she do??"

she just laughed and said that they told the truth (OH MY GOD!) but but but but... SHE IS NOT ANGRY! (believe it or not!) she said that I should not have gone home because the fare is too high and she'll still accept it even if it's late..

i was horrostricken.. is this for real? she is not angry?? well.. i arrived at school holding my poster and gave it to my professor after her class.. (i was out of my mind)

she said, "Did you really went home or just late?"
I replied "Yes Ma'am.. I went home because i thought you won't accept it"
she said"Oh you shouldn't! u just wasted ur money... well.. thanks for this.."
i replied... "ah..yeah. ahm.. thanks Ma'am"

woah.. what did she ate?? ahhaa.. well..lucky that she's in the good mood.. well.. sorry for me cause i just lost almost a hundred peso for just a fare.. hmpf!

good luck for me for the exam!

ooh.. i just wasted my money!

cheers for you man!

then the next stop is..

Charle's house..

I went there with Meng and Kat..

well.. the house is in TMC and I've been there once.. I hope.. I can still remember.. On the way.. while I'm getting near and near.. I'm actually thinking what to do, what to say and what to see..

I can't imagine it. too hard.. cause it's too fast...

well.. here we are.. we turned right and looked for the sapphire street (thanks Nadz!!) and look for the orange house.. well.. not hard to find.. there's the tent in there..

I'm surprised to see almost all of my classmates in there.. well.. we love you man!

and there he is.. I dunno how will I go to him.. but I'm so impressed to see him SMILE.. like nothing happened... well.. I went to him and poke him and I smiled..speechless.. he said "Kit!"

haha.. and that brought the nervousness away from me..

I chat with my other classmates and then we decided to take a walk. well.. it's really really hot but it's worth it.. we sat at the bench?? near the court

and Kevin gave me the brochure of the Paradise Garden (memorial park). wahaha.. "susunod ka na Kevin".. haha..(you'll be the next) well.. just kidding...

we went to the halo-halo store afterwards and ordered too many.. we almost destroyed the place cause we are so wild to have the halo-halo.. ahhaa..
while waiting for the order, Maje, Niknak, Chiaa, me, and maybe Liker had a concert.. free!! hahaa...

starring Thinking of You, Hot N COld and I kissed a Girl.. wahaha..and others..
Katy Perry fans?? not really...

we sang till our throats drop and till the audience's eardrums hammered to death.. laughs!

then we ate the ever delicious and refreshing HALO-HALO!!! yummy!!!!

then we went inside the i-don't-know-what-it-is-called place and chat and ate..

then I had the chance to talk to Charles..

and he said those words that made my eyes hot.. waaaaah... i know i shouldn't be sad but I can't keep it.

then I almost cried as he says how his father died.. "Yun ung masakit dun eh.. Bago siya mamatay, nag-way pa kami. Kasi yung sabi niya, yung hindi niya na ako maasahan sa bahay. Eto naman ako mapride bago siya mamatay.. hindi man lang ako nkpagsorry.. nkpagsorry nga.. bulong naman.. bka nga hindi niya p un nrinig eh.. "

(that's the hardest and most painful part in there.. Before he died, we had a fight. Because he said, they can't depend on me in household duties. Me, being the prideful son, haven't said sorry before he died. I said sorry but only in a whisper. Maybe he even hadn't heard it.)

Nadine, "narinig nya yun" (he heard it)

Charles, "Sana nga.. O sabi na eh malulungkot kayo(aly). Kya hndi ko sinasabi eh. Ayoko na kasi maging malungkot" (Hope so. Told you! You'll be sad. That's why I don't tell you. I just don't want to be sad"

Then I said sorry and told him that don't be guilty for his father's death.. He has gone in a better place. And maybe, the timing is not right but it's in God's time. I know, He won't let you.. Cheer up..

Then he tell other stories and this one made me cry again. "Alam mo, ang dami niyang pangarap para kay Nene.. pagduduktorin daw yun.. tapos ngayon..haay"

(You know, he has so many dreams for Nene (Amina).. he'll make her a doctor someday.. but then now.. haay")

waah.. stop stop stop..
then he said.. "Ngayong araw, dapat gigising ako ng 10 am.. Kaso.. Narinig ko yung hagulgol ni Mama,, ayun... ngsing na ko tapos pinunthaan ko siya, Pag naririnig ko umiyak si Mama.. Di ko mapigilang umiyak din... "

(Today, I should wake up at 10 am but then I heard my mother cry so I went to comfort her... When I hear her cry, I can't help but to cry too")

wwahh.. hearing those words.. I can feel the hurt inside. waah.. it's so painful..

then we decided to go back to the house after some chatting and laughters but then Dana and I decided to be left behind..

what did we do??? waah.. we cried rivers of tears as we talk bout Charles' father.. waah..

then we go back.. whew.. we should realize the worth of someone important in our lives before it's too late..

Then they ate after it and some went home .. then the left ones are me, Dana, Nadz, Ermar and Charles.. where did we go??? to the forest!

we decided to go to the river but then it's too steep so we just took pix.. we met a man ... ahm maybe the tanod ... Mr. T. Espineli.. we guessed his name (teodoro!! wahha.. nice)

and he told us stories bout the forest .. and sad that there's a crime happened there.. an innocent gurl was raped.. too bad.. =((

then.. we took pix.. look at it at the bottom.. and.. afterwards.. we stroll all around the village.. I laugh with a funny story with Dana and I almost dropped my stomach and my jaws with all my laughs!!! wahh.. Dana!!! u made me crazy..
then.. we ate ice ceandy and went back to the house to wait for Desha..

ahm.. all i can say is... I hope.. Charles is really happy and relieved even just for a while...

u can do it man

and i wanna share my joys with the cute little angel Amina! Charles'li'l sis.. so cute

hope u'll take care of her man! u promise...

don't wanna bring the pressure to you..
sorry..

well..i know it'll be okay.. we love you!!!

now.. time to study.// burrrrrr!!

charles.. wahaha.. wid the umbrella

ermar in front.. hi nadz..charles stolen

model in the forest?

that's Mr. Teodoro.. wahha.. and Charles, what's with the face?

this is BAbes!!! he's so cute!

well.. that's me.. the clumsy gurl...

Amina!!!!! cute little angel!

dana nd me!!! nadz????

what's wrong with my shirt?
wah.. me and Babes!
going down! going down!
wahaa... monkey!

till next time.. =)

where is that house?!

well.. it's saturday and I have a hectic sched ahead.. woah..

i first went to the house of my classmate, CHARMAINE, in Buna Lejos, Indang, Cavite..
well.. being the adventurous-almost-in-the-nick-of-being-dead-clumsy-silly girl, I went to her house alone not knowing how to go.. wahaha..this is actually the first time I will be in that place.. wish me luck

thank God, she text me and said that I should go straight in the intersection and she'll wait for me in front of her house.. (whew!)

then,, the adventure began.. go gurl.. u can find it.. u can find it.. u can fi... u ca... (waah.. where am i????!!!) Charmaine... is it in the left or the right??? help help help!!!!

meng??? yeah! found you.. manong driver.. stop! haha.. finally.. after a century.. i found it.. wahah..

then, i paid and went inside the house...

i was surprised because the house is extraordinarily BIIIIIIG!!

then she have three cute lil bro and sis.. and a cousin.. they're so cute.. I wanna adopt one of them.. and she also has a sister..the beautiful one and her friendly mom.. I have my other classmate with me who is Kat..
then.. we went to our destination which is the house of our adviser... but then.she was away so we stayed in the Charmaine's place.

We went to the store to buy merienda and it is sooo0o0o0o hot.. summer summer.. then we ate.. and chat and i really love the place cause it's too peaceful and i love their leaving room.. TWO GIANT TV'S!
I hope we can sleepover there someday..

what can I say.. well.. that's just the first stop and I wanna thank Meng for letting us stay.. cool rooftop!!! waahaha..

and when we go to our adviser.. waah.. so many revisions.. I'm burried with the research works..

help me help me.. then the next stop??? check it out...