i hate being BLOO0O0OOO0DY sick!

i thought i was fine.. i REALLY thought i was fine..

so i went to school after i got a rest and that's a blast actually.. it's nice to be back to school with all ur friends and I'm really excited when they told me if i will be there in the ubernyt!!!!of course i will!

but then.. afternoon came...crap! i felt like i was floating away.. waah.. my temperature is really high and all the hair in my body is standing.. crap... it can't be.. i can't be sick! i can't be sick again! how bout the sleepover??? how about the trip to the river??? this is totally crap. dang!

i actually wanna help to finish our project at school but i can't move and i really can't go home like this... what will my father say??!!but i have no choice and i know why this is happening.. now i know..
stupid gurl.. really really stupid.. why in the hell did you forgot to take your meds??!!!!

oh my... i have no choice but to go home.. and there i was... i'm home.. but actually.. i'm smiling..i'm pretending that i was AAAALL right... (this is getting really hard)..

how can i bless to my grandma??? well.. i hope she won't notice.. but but but.. what???!!!!i thought.. dad is at work?? why is he bloody here?? he'll be angry if he knew I'm sick... discipline gurl! next time.. behave!take ur meds okay?!

so i went to the kitchen smiling.. AAAALL right... i grab my father's hand and bless very quick same with my grandma... co0o0oo0l! they haven't noticed.. i'm a good actress actually.. hahaha...and then my dad went to work.... just in time!

but,, this fever is really into me.. I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE...maybe my grandma will understand.. so i told her... she's a nervy but it's nature.. and i was surprised when she ask our neighbor to 'TAWAS' me... it's done to kinda sense if there's the supernatural being inside me and making all this sickness...(what???!!!)this isn't really happening...supernatural being??????this is totally crap

i ask my grandma if she really believes in it.. and she said absolutely..well..i have no choice..(hand at my forehead) i'm gonna do this bloody thing whether I like it or not..

then they came and here are the equipments:

• two candles (white)
• 1 container with water
• knife (are they gonna tear my stomach apart?)
• paper (i don't know what is it called but it can be purchased in our store here)
• matchbox and matchstick of course

and then she asked my name and started to do her thing.. after that.. she formed so many figures in the container..like a long-haired gurl... monster baby.. black creature.. baah..she's an expert i think.. maybe she'll put it in her exhibit

and told me that she doesn't know where it came from and just asked to sleep with it under my pillow.. (nice one! will i dream about them????)
but it's not that.. she asked if my back is aching.. actually it is.. so she called me to my room because she will massage it.. nice! thanks..

then i lie.. she started.. aaah.. nice... continue.. right.. there.. ahh... aaw..aw!OW!!!stop! oh my.. do u know what does "bone" mean???? i have bones actually! don't break them! ow! crap! i have no bones..i'm paralyzed.. i'm not getting well.. this is dang!

well.. my fever haven't lowered the whole night but after i take my meds... i was feeling alright..

how i wish i can be there in the river now.. and have the sleepover too..

they are all enjoying.. without me.without me.WITHOUT ME!

why did they have to plan all of these when i'm sick??!!!! this is so unfair.. i've been always there when there are plans like these.. and i have never felt all left out all my life.. this is bloody bloody bad!!!

but i know... God made this for a purpose... i just need to rest... T_T..

i don't wanna be sick anymore.. no more.. never!

p.s.

good news...i just received the message..my family is going to a comedy bar.. and this is really so0o0o unfair... i'm not joining them.. for God's sake.. I'm fine!!!!!

i'm crying now actually.. my whole vacation is ruined i think..good start for the end of my tiring school year.. enjoy guyz... me.. i'm gonna lie on my bed and cry... this is just a nightmare...a NIGHTMARE!