Ma-inlove. Pa'no ba?

okay..I've been TOOOOOOOO inactive for a very long time and

maybe, I temporarily lost interest in scribbling down how my life is up

insert strikethrough here ---->>; "probably": because of too much laziness

well, before anything else.... this blog would be about

"LOVE. LOVE. LOVE. LOVE. LOVE"

yeah, you saw it just right.

I am actually not considering it for the past few months... since the end of high school. I might just shunned it up for the mean time.

maybe, I just want to get rid of it. "IT" and everything that comes with it.

After all the things that happened. I wanted to concentrate on other things. and mainly...

-STUDIES-

pretty boring, huh?

well, it is my life right now. I can't say I'm happy with it. I can't say I'm not.

But I can say, there's something missing.

{blank space. blank space. what to write next.}

okay. so then. I just read manga. a manga about romance.

It's been a while. This is the first time after a year, that I got the stream of unexplained tingling all over my body.

OO KINIKILIG AKO

kahit fictional lang sila.

I can't stop reading it because probably, I missed the feeling.

HINDI KO MAPIGILANG TUMAWA.

HINDI KO MAPIGILANG MAGBLUSH.

HINDI NA KO MAKAPAG-ISIP NG TAMA (although hindi naman talaga ako tama mag-isip =D))

EWAN KO. HINDI KO RIN MAINTINDIHAN...

SA NGAYON. GUSTO KO RING MA-INLOVE NA AYAW KO.

I don't know if I must want it for it to come, or just let it boom! surprise. I AM INLOVE.

But everyone, especially LAST FEBRUARY (head aches due to the environment) - happy couples over there, singles gathering over here, confessions, affections, resentments and NRs (I probably belong to the last group)

oops correction I must add the "slightly annoyed" group and I belong here.

But actually, I didn't know the reason of that irritation until now.

I'm envious.

OO NA, SIGE NA NGA. NAIINGGIT NA KO.

fictional characters or not. BUTI PA SILA, may lovelife.

parang gusto ko rin - ngingiti lang ako ng walang dahilan (not in a mental way)

- o kaya naman, gusto ko rin magblush paminsan minsan

- to be caught off guard

- to feel EXTRA SPECIAL

ewan ko ba. yan lang siguro ang tingin ko kapag inlove. SORRY NAMAN DIBA. KULANG SA EXPERIENCE. at sa tingin ko, ang fictional din ng mga pangyayaring yan. pero sa ngayon, parang gusto ko rin silang maramdaman.

Sa mga nakaraang buwan, lagi lang akong nakasubaybay sa kwento ng ibang tao sa paligid. Oo, masayang makinig. Parang lesson lang sa klase (except the boring ones). Nagtatake down ng notes sa mga pangyayari. Kunwari may naintindihan. Pero pag hands-on na pala, hindi na alam ang gagawin.

Kaya ayoko pa rin

kasi, hindi pa yata ako handa.

.OO NATATAKOT AKO.

SIGE NA, ako na nga ang magulo.

siguro ayoko rin kasi munang mabago ang buhay ko.

sa ngayon, di nga ako kumpleto. pero hindi pa rin siguro ngayon ang oras para "mainlove" ako.

TAMA. IMMATURE PA KO. MARAMI PA KONG HINDI ALAM.

kaya siguro. hahayaan ko na lang na mangyari ang mga bagay bagay sa mundo.

pero may isang tanong din na kinakatakot ko.

MAIINLOVE PA KAYA AKO?